I would have wrote tis earlier, but there's no time... and much considerations to do so.
I thot, it'll nv reach 100.00 % totally.but it's time to face it..
i have decided to let you go, go from the grasp of my heart, go from de portrait that i painted beautifully initially...
I've been tinking, why is that, no matter how much you let me down, no matter how much you hurt me, i nv blame it back on you n forgive u. I'm like a fool..
It's becoZ, every now and then, i know , there's always tis picture of you, something that holds and tells me, there is some hope left for you. to return.
Everything else juz seem like a passing. Forgive and forget.. it is so easy to b said..
Every day's chores, stuff drove my attention bit by bit. Yet each un divided and free attention channel some where else. Into the dreamy day-dreams they went, into the fairy tales images that only exist in my head and.. into something which i still cannot put down..
it's been 3 weeks.. yoUu.
Finally.. i grew to realise. U hurt me once, even if u return, what good might it bring ? Will u promise me not to hurt me again ? u promised, but it was gone.. i already knew it. But i still trusted yoUu.. i nv stopped believe ing till...then.. now.
I begin to realise, how bad it looks like from the other side of the world. I look so bad that it's obvious tat everyone knows.Trying to draw a line of reality into my world now. I seem to have broken off from reality since...
Gloomy. that's a good word to use. Everything seems to be darker and lost it's shine since...
Even i was dismiss at 1.30 pm, the earlist time to be of the week and it's a FRIDAY. I feel so isolated and.. alone. De world seems to stop moving. Everyone else, had something on, happily.. cheerfully.. SRJC seems so alive.. but in my eyes, they were juz walls.. walls that carry happiness i could not hear or see, and worse.. felt.
i worry yoUu, i care yoUu, everything.. is juz but painted only in a portrait of my imaginations now. The colour of the portrait is fading. There is no treasuring of the portrait. I guess, some memories are meant to be let go, and release to the great enviroments, lost to the winds .. maybe forever..
What can i do to make u stay ? i dun tink i can any more.
What can i do to protect u ? I dun tink i can any more.
What can i even serve or do for u ? I dun tink i can any more too.
I, uncovering the smoke of the fires in my heart. The whole land of heartx is now in ruins, burning with smokes of mysteries and un certainites, yet the sky rains with tears of sorrow.. But.. luckily, there's always fatigue to make me tired, and let me rest well. Dun tink i can rest with out them..
No matter how many entries u read, u juz dun understand. So, i'm going to be direct and say it here...
Throughout the so many days, i nv really feel comforted. I worry, concern and care.. yet.. anything, i dunno, i tink so. It did hurt, hurt v. much till i do not know what to say. But since tis will b the last entry of tis blog.. i guess .. nothing else can recover the pain.. though i nv blame you, but my last request of you will b to stop causing it.
It was all a mistake, ai shang yi ger bu yin gai de ren.. hais..
Let go of you..
the broken fragments of my heart will bear the burden of pink no more..
i hope they could be back to their best like before...
~everything is falling once they'r piece together..
Everything about you will fore be a dream. I dun wish to remember much, yet i can't bear to vanquish u from my memories. Let meetings and partings b decided by fate once more..
For you, forget all about me. I do not see y i shd have space to keep in ur precious brain. Neither will you nid me in ur memories.
~ i Dun tink we'll ever meet again.. Maybe we will. But, it'll take some time..
if the grasses were to grow and let nature recover...
i juZ wish u all de best..
乌云在我们心里搁下一块阴影
我聆听沉积已久的心情
星星透明 就像美丽的风景
走在回忆里才看的清
被伤透的心能不能够继续爱我
我用力牵起没温度的双手
过往温柔 已经被时间上锁
只剩挥散不去的难过
缓缓掉落的枫叶像思念
我点燃烛火温暖随波到秋天
金黄的到天边
被风掠过像你的容颜
我把爱烧成了落叶
却换不回熟悉的那张脸
缓缓掉落的枫叶像思念
为何挽回要赶在冬天来之前
爱你穿越时间
两行泪只求我的眼泪
让爱散透了地面
我要的只是你在我身边
被伤透的心能不能够继续爱我
我用力牵起没温度的双手
过往温柔 已经被时间上锁
只剩挥散不去的难过
再想要剪开一夜风雨
随着北风凋零
我轻轻摇曳风铃
想唤醒被遗弃的爱情
雪花已铺满了地
谁把窗外枫叶已经沉迷
缓缓掉落的枫叶像思念
我点燃烛火温暖随波到秋天
金黄的到天边
被风掠过像你的容颜
我把爱烧成了落叶
就唤不回熟悉的那张脸
缓缓掉落的枫叶像思念
为何挽回要赶在冬天来之前
爱你穿越时间
两行泪只求我的眼泪
让爱散透了地面
我要的只是你在我身边
Tis Blog Is Declared Dead - 15 July 06.. To be Revived maybe..
REst iN pieces..
It's Juz another fantasy- 10:50 PM
