I m making one last entry.. to close up everything. I know it's pretty difficult to accept reality, but i'm more or less prepared to end it so. What that is most difficult to let go, are our memories.
Maybe, it seems like it's pretty fine to you, but u'll nv understand ever again how i feel..
For words cannot express what feelings say.
I m forced to accept it and i needed time. I know u didn't mean it. but, it juz came in at the wrong time. Half caught between mid years and thots, i juz scraped through everything. It is v. painful. The whole week.. of sleep is gone like that. I will be forced to face the nightmares of the results then.
I dun want to dwell on this matter any longer. So, i'll choose to end it the way it is. To you, u have found yet another happiness, i feel happy for you, but sad becoz i've lost you. It is added to de burden that i m holding on. I'm sorry it had to be this way, i know u wanted me back to who i was, but with such a short time. I don't tink i can. I wasn't given a choice.You chose how it ended.
Time heals all wounds. Perharps let fate decide our next meeting. Meetings and partings are part of fate. I thx u for everything that u have done so far, everything that u have given me.
Forget everything that happened,
forget everything that once lived,
forget everything that relates to
me..
For u and i have nothing to do with each other again.
Someone else will look after u once i'm gone, someone else will be able to give u everything u wanted like u told me. I ? Will play no part in ur life and ur world any more, for i have already been invinsible since he stepped into ur life n world. I have become.. meaningless. So i'm not intending to dragg this any longer, save the place for someone else who has a meaning then.
i'm sorry. As much as you are. I've lost, my reading was correct. To fight...
but in vain. I tried my best. Not to tink of you any more is de best solution.
It hurt me to see u once more, frankly, that's y. Everything inside is falling apart as soon as they'r placed together.
What do i have to do wif u again ? I told u before, i wrote it down before. N it will not change so fast... for i meant what i say and mean what i wrote.
Even if the last remaining colors of my heart fade, it will be white, but.. PINK lish white.
It's raining heavily here as i blog. Who got umbrella ? Care to share wif me at de tag board?
Maybe tissue will do, rain isn't too big to be flooded though..
In case, those who tinks de above is crap, i'm sorry. Here's some stuff abt mid years, though i'm not in the mood to talk abt them.
Our Maths Invigulator ROXS ! he made everyone FOLLOW DE INSTRUCTIONS CAREFULLY.
Wow i applause and give him de most RETARDED award. -__- come on, we are not idiots, neither are we taking something pro. It's juZ an mid year SCHOOL exam.
Chinese paper.. ok ok lo.
Our econs was a goner !! We can all prepare add oil liao. Maybe also can add oil to the school and juz burn it down =P ( JOKING- PLS DO NOT TRY TIS IN SCHOOL -) When we add oil, demand of oil increases.. blah blah blah.. i'm sure u all know tis -__-.
Rice is elastic or inelastic. (Wow!)They can be stretched or tested tat way. So is restraunt meals.
Physics !! It was quite a bad thing coz it was before chem paper in the afternoon. Though it was in the morning, but then.. u all know.phy is H1, then chem is h2.. so.. ehh.. u know. =P
Chemistry was another goner.15 pages. 6 Structured Qn. All of us were busy using thumbs and fingers , ok in short, everything to do wif chemistry calculations. All of us better go temple pray, coz most of us tikam ti kam the MCQ becoz we have no money !!! Time = Money.. =P ( ok i'm being lame here )
I wait.. i waited.. and is still waiting.I know, though it might nv happen again, i m still waiting for... ouy
Achoo.. stupid. I'm like sneezing tears out. Tink i got flu..+..wadever is happening now it's.. stupid. Tissue !!...
Guild outing later.. and meeting char, lyn, siao eh they all. Enjoy youth day everyone......
It's Juz another fantasy- 12:20 PM
