Back...
BecoZ..
it's been a month...
i say let go..
But.. everything else is not all right.. i juz had a war over here.. meanwhile.. the other area already passed on. Dad juz send a flying bomb over to my area.. i reliated. I was already at my wit's end. I could not stop but feel the hatred in my veins... my cold eyes are back.
Well, i finally almost had warm water streaming my cheeks. It's painful, to mix both an emity of lover and family. I expected it. I immediately stopped the war to counter the effects. I was getting ppl who are illegal involved as well. Juz knew i couldn't get along with my dad no matter how. Yet ppl always say, extreme ppl are like that. Everything should be fine..
yes.. with things brewing, i don't tink everything is fine. It's like a storm brewing a distant while it's still peaceful here..
i finally then realise, it was like letting you go as well. A month, yet i can't forget you. I already knew you would become my greatest nightmare now. I see you, i feel you, yet i cannot regard you as who u actually are like before, for i have already long vanished from your heart. maybe it all lies with me .. nvm.
This perharps shall be the last entry for this blog. Meanwhile, it's painful, very painful when one of your heart's component turn against you..like quarreling with your dad. -__- ..
but.. who is de enemy ?
i tink i will need to lend all ur strengths..
promos are coming. My emotional shields are breaking.
The light in my world is dimishing.
I juz hope, someone can give me a brighter light.
It's Juz another fantasy- 9:26 PM
