Monday, March 26, 2007
Fate sure knows how to plan events. It's her 4th year anniversary.. n since 03, these odd years have been rather scary >_< starts off wif such lightning in such a ordinary day ? Maybe i'm juz paranoid, in came china students.. Well, i'd would say.. the flame in me almost burned out. LoLs.. Too hot for me to handle. I'm now with a splitting headache. Woken up at the wrong time.. Hais, somewhere around there or that lahs. That might also mean, i'm going to be sick again ! Hate you muz not says yoda Stress you muz not says me. LoLs. Bros unite. Let one prediction i open now break.. is that.. i still believe that it will round up eventually. Though it has failed in alice n yubin's case. What says the lord to play around wif his destiny plate again. Aww..yawnxz. Somewhat it gets interesting. Somewhat is doesn't. I'm enjoying the pace things pick up, but once again.. more haste less speed. But well, look again.. Look at pirate's trailer, babossa n jack. You're mad.. if i wasn't, then it is probably wasn't were. That's all. I'm off to bed. I tink i'm still going to end up in hospital soon perharps ?
It's Juz another fantasy- 11:02 PM
Music seems to end off always. Hahax.. Even so for the music of the night.. Phantom Of The Opera.. Nice story.. no one could help agree ing.. The medley was so.. wow. the one clement sent me. Now was the 7th Night of july. It's kinda funny. I feel warmth, yet..it's so cold. Partly due to the rain bahs. Mellisa reminds me of kat suddenly. So weird lahs can ? >_<>_< So much for the royal advisor. Off to school ! =)
It's Juz another fantasy- 6:22 AM
Thursday, March 22, 2007
The hectic life of me has evolved into a kinda life which i'd never thought before. I'm completely down to mugging ! Using less of computer, taking out stuff to do every now and then. Yes, i'll be deprived of alot of things, computer, intereaction, especially her. There's so little time, but so much to do... Didn't know where to begin ler. It's nearing 1, i should be sleeping now instead of blogging. But i guess i'll juz take some time down to type a few stuff here. =X dun wan my readers to click here n tag " dead blog " >_< I'll begin by today bahs. Today.. almost losted my economics lecture books. I placed them below me during the STAR ( Sheduled Tests, Assessment & Review ). The talk by Tan KK was very boring. I found out my "bro", grayson also actually too fell asleep. I was struggling very much to keep awake. Alice in wonderland seems like juz a distant away, she was like pulling my soul to her land.. slowly. N POOF! She disappeared. Thxs to the lucky word " i'll stop here " by Tan KK. I could stay awake for his lecture after Break in the morning, but somehow dunno why after lunch so sleepy. Totally like.. yawnxz. Maybe it was dry.. even Mr Lum came up to say so. Ms Sim could not help but agree wif " graveyard hour". The tutorial before the STAR was like that lors. i almost fell asleep, but becoz Ms Sim's constant screaming made us awake.. back to the issue.. i blur blur ler, forgot to take the books lors. Only remembered when i went into the MRT. So i gotta thxs xiiao qian for helping me check the LT. Some kind soul helped me and passed the books to Ms Sim. Blessed who ever it is. =) Then Ms Sim passed it to Hui Lin. Then she sms me. Is it all fated? Like the last time i kept a file for her, now it's my lecture books. LoLs, so we dun owe each other one then. =) o_O.. Zen Ming Tian Shi.. by tank. The MTV touched my heart so that it almost cried. Literally, if i were to drop tears, it means my heart is crying v. badly. Only once, then.. that day.. you zenia. N perharps.. Bad memories are to be forgotten aren't they ? i shouldn't comment further. Juz read the lyrics, then realise it's "wo yi ding hai zhai zhen shuay" ( i would be in a slumber ) I guess.. that shall be my status. Slumber from love. It'll be a loveless struggle.. What a ironic. Hais. That's it. My heart remains no more, n henced sealed.. My vampire heart will take over.. I sense more motivation overwhelming. Time passes fast, but that's that. =X
It's Juz another fantasy- 11:32 PM
Sunday, July 30, 2006
Fu CK
Guess wat ? Tat's the new coperated name of the gang. CoZ it's named after our 2 heads =P
N For yoU sCare Kiong !!
I HATE YOU.
YOU WISH TO FORGET EVERYTHING.
THEN SO BE IT.
U FORCED MY LAST..
ZENIA CHEONG WAN TING..
NOt any.. MORE..
Seems like..
i've wasted my time.. to recap everything.. tink everything.. re structure.
To tink there was still hope..
I M A FOOL..
N i ALWAYS HAVE BEEN..
If now.. i had a choice..
Portal mistress..
Take my memories..
to trade forth..
a path of knowledge and wisdom..
i would have traded it for more time too...
The dark skies lightened..
I look at the blackish waters raining on to the horizon..
what.. is going to happen.. still ?
For.. Blood Incoperated indirectly meants tears of the heart... Or.. you bear the thots and opinions of mine.. that runs in my veins.. Blood..
It's Juz another fantasy- 12:09 AM
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
Back...
BecoZ..
it's been a month...
i say let go..
But.. everything else is not all right.. i juz had a war over here.. meanwhile.. the other area already passed on. Dad juz send a flying bomb over to my area.. i reliated. I was already at my wit's end. I could not stop but feel the hatred in my veins... my cold eyes are back.
Well, i finally almost had warm water streaming my cheeks. It's painful, to mix both an emity of lover and family. I expected it. I immediately stopped the war to counter the effects. I was getting ppl who are illegal involved as well. Juz knew i couldn't get along with my dad no matter how. Yet ppl always say, extreme ppl are like that. Everything should be fine..
yes.. with things brewing, i don't tink everything is fine. It's like a storm brewing a distant while it's still peaceful here..
i finally then realise, it was like letting you go as well. A month, yet i can't forget you. I already knew you would become my greatest nightmare now. I see you, i feel you, yet i cannot regard you as who u actually are like before, for i have already long vanished from your heart. maybe it all lies with me .. nvm.
This perharps shall be the last entry for this blog. Meanwhile, it's painful, very painful when one of your heart's component turn against you..like quarreling with your dad. -__- ..
but.. who is de enemy ?
i tink i will need to lend all ur strengths..
promos are coming. My emotional shields are breaking.
The light in my world is dimishing.
I juz hope, someone can give me a brighter light.
It's Juz another fantasy- 9:26 PM
Monday, July 17, 2006
Pp crave stuff on grave stones don't they ?.. i guess it serves as it.
Davy Jones Locked His heart up for a reason- For those that have seen Dead Man's Chest.
I would have loved to.. take it out wif yoUu..
"loved" to...
Love in my veins are fading,
yet only one thing shd run in them..
Was it i owe u?
Or was it soO deep..
Perharps Perharps Perharps.. Everything is going de wrong way down.
i Dun wan to talk any more... it's pointless..
i'm juZ holding on to air..
air that somone threw away....
It's Juz another fantasy- 11:46 PM
Friday, July 14, 2006
I would have wrote tis earlier, but there's no time... and much considerations to do so.
I thot, it'll nv reach 100.00 % totally.but it's time to face it..
i have decided to let you go, go from the grasp of my heart, go from de portrait that i painted beautifully initially...
I've been tinking, why is that, no matter how much you let me down, no matter how much you hurt me, i nv blame it back on you n forgive u. I'm like a fool..
It's becoZ, every now and then, i know , there's always tis picture of you, something that holds and tells me, there is some hope left for you. to return.
Everything else juz seem like a passing. Forgive and forget.. it is so easy to b said..
Every day's chores, stuff drove my attention bit by bit. Yet each un divided and free attention channel some where else. Into the dreamy day-dreams they went, into the fairy tales images that only exist in my head and.. into something which i still cannot put down..
it's been 3 weeks.. yoUu.
Finally.. i grew to realise. U hurt me once, even if u return, what good might it bring ? Will u promise me not to hurt me again ? u promised, but it was gone.. i already knew it. But i still trusted yoUu.. i nv stopped believe ing till...then.. now.
I begin to realise, how bad it looks like from the other side of the world. I look so bad that it's obvious tat everyone knows.Trying to draw a line of reality into my world now. I seem to have broken off from reality since...
Gloomy. that's a good word to use. Everything seems to be darker and lost it's shine since...
Even i was dismiss at 1.30 pm, the earlist time to be of the week and it's a FRIDAY. I feel so isolated and.. alone. De world seems to stop moving. Everyone else, had something on, happily.. cheerfully.. SRJC seems so alive.. but in my eyes, they were juz walls.. walls that carry happiness i could not hear or see, and worse.. felt.
i worry yoUu, i care yoUu, everything.. is juz but painted only in a portrait of my imaginations now. The colour of the portrait is fading. There is no treasuring of the portrait. I guess, some memories are meant to be let go, and release to the great enviroments, lost to the winds .. maybe forever..
What can i do to make u stay ? i dun tink i can any more.
What can i do to protect u ? I dun tink i can any more.
What can i even serve or do for u ? I dun tink i can any more too.
I, uncovering the smoke of the fires in my heart. The whole land of heartx is now in ruins, burning with smokes of mysteries and un certainites, yet the sky rains with tears of sorrow.. But.. luckily, there's always fatigue to make me tired, and let me rest well. Dun tink i can rest with out them..
No matter how many entries u read, u juz dun understand. So, i'm going to be direct and say it here...
Throughout the so many days, i nv really feel comforted. I worry, concern and care.. yet.. anything, i dunno, i tink so. It did hurt, hurt v. much till i do not know what to say. But since tis will b the last entry of tis blog.. i guess .. nothing else can recover the pain.. though i nv blame you, but my last request of you will b to stop causing it.
It was all a mistake, ai shang yi ger bu yin gai de ren.. hais..
Let go of you..
the broken fragments of my heart will bear the burden of pink no more..
i hope they could be back to their best like before...
~everything is falling once they'r piece together..
Everything about you will fore be a dream. I dun wish to remember much, yet i can't bear to vanquish u from my memories. Let meetings and partings b decided by fate once more..
For you, forget all about me. I do not see y i shd have space to keep in ur precious brain. Neither will you nid me in ur memories.
~ i Dun tink we'll ever meet again.. Maybe we will. But, it'll take some time..
if the grasses were to grow and let nature recover...
i juZ wish u all de best..
乌云在我们心里搁下一块阴影
我聆听沉积已久的心情
星星透明 就像美丽的风景
走在回忆里才看的清
被伤透的心能不能够继续爱我
我用力牵起没温度的双手
过往温柔 已经被时间上锁
只剩挥散不去的难过
缓缓掉落的枫叶像思念
我点燃烛火温暖随波到秋天
金黄的到天边
被风掠过像你的容颜
我把爱烧成了落叶
却换不回熟悉的那张脸
缓缓掉落的枫叶像思念
为何挽回要赶在冬天来之前
爱你穿越时间
两行泪只求我的眼泪
让爱散透了地面
我要的只是你在我身边
被伤透的心能不能够继续爱我
我用力牵起没温度的双手
过往温柔 已经被时间上锁
只剩挥散不去的难过
再想要剪开一夜风雨
随着北风凋零
我轻轻摇曳风铃
想唤醒被遗弃的爱情
雪花已铺满了地
谁把窗外枫叶已经沉迷
缓缓掉落的枫叶像思念
我点燃烛火温暖随波到秋天
金黄的到天边
被风掠过像你的容颜
我把爱烧成了落叶
就唤不回熟悉的那张脸
缓缓掉落的枫叶像思念
为何挽回要赶在冬天来之前
爱你穿越时间
两行泪只求我的眼泪
让爱散透了地面
我要的只是你在我身边
Tis Blog Is Declared Dead - 15 July 06.. To be Revived maybe..
REst iN pieces..
It's Juz another fantasy- 10:50 PM
